A Fresh Start.

Hey there, peeps. I've decided to start this blog fresh because after I reread my previous entries, I feel like my thoughts are so immature and lame. So, yeah :D

I'm not gonna lie, there was a time when I wanted to study abroad so bad. But now, I am scared shitless. I don't wanna be far apart from my mom. My mom is my whole life. I always feel the need to look out for her, to protect her, even when she actually can survive pretty well on her own. I just need to be close to her. Another reason I don't wanna go is because I've changed. A lot. I'm not the old Hana who dreams big and won't settle for only enough. I used to want great things but now I am okay with just making through life. I'm content with being a normal girl living a normal life. Maybe that is why I'm not as disappointed as I should be. Maybe that's why I'm not bawling my eyes out in bed with The Climb by Miley blasting out of my speakers at full volume. But I know how it's gonna be like with my dad. He's gonna have this disappointed look on his face and I won't be able to look him in the eyes. It's all really his fault that everything's messed up the way it is but I would still feel sad that he's sad... I really feel like disappearing to somewhere now. Can I just run away from all this until everything becomes okay again?